Rolling into day 3 of being unemployed and starting to notice the psychological effects on me for not being employed. I enjoy working. I've been working since i was young and so used to it, my wife forces me to leave any and all work at home when we go on vacation. What I have noticed is 2 mains things so far. Firstly, I am sleeping a lot less and waking up almost every hour. Last night would be described as a Casino slot machine night in my opinion. I saw 3:33, 4:44 and 5:55 on the clock before giving up on sleep and getting up. Would have been a big winner at the casino but instead I lost big on the sleep factor.
The other thing I have noticed, is being so focused on researching my future options, finding a new job and re-educating myself on the art of resume writing and applying for a job, I am forgetting to eat. I have a high metabolism and tend to eat a lot. My body promptly tells me when it is in need of substance. In the last couple days, I have missed eating lunch twice and eating dinners after 830pm. My stomach is also not doing the vocal growl demanding food which it normally does when neglected. I am not even gonna consider weighing myself as I know I've lost more weight and that will just make it worse knowing how much weight I've shed and need to put back on. Whether it is stress or distractions causing me not to eat or just the mental aspect of checking a couple more jobs before taking a break or just the stress of it all causing this, one can only guess. I've noticed before taking a break, I'll tell myself to check a couple more jobs before breaking, only to realize an hour later I didn't take a break. I then tell myself a couple more jobs and then a break. 1 hour later, the cycle repeats itself again. Next thing lunch and dinner have passed and still no substance in my stomach.
Hopefully today, i will try and break that cycle and have gone to the extent of setting reminders to eat. I used to joke back in my support days when logging into someone's account and seeing their calendar and laughing. Why did I laugh? These people planned there day out to almost the minute. One guy's schedule showed when he was to get dressed, eat, brush teeth and even go to the bathroom! Maybe it was OCD (or CDO for the OCD's) or just being real good with time management but for each person, we all have our own way of managing ourselves and our time.
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